THINKING (in) CAP (SLOCK)

I’m going to go now and won’t be back for awhile.

See me off.
If I ever departed before you arrived,
you, being
you, would tear down the gates of departure.
I like to think that.

I hate to think that
Truth is: Everyone is diverging away. 
I’ll make the most of our limited time in this limited window of limited opportunity because

Truth is: The day we finally diverge, I probably wouldn’t notice;
I may not tear through walls to get to you.

I’ll make the most of this current urgency and awareness because
I’m going to go now and won’t be back for awhile. 

It was one of those mundane daily 15 minute commutes and everyone was trying to catch some much-needed sleep but that morning, I asked, “Do you have your own ideal version?”, and that morning, everything changed.

A: What is right and what is wrong?

B: You’re everything to me; on you my heart relies.

You’ve never pursued anything but the best.
In time, you’ve become the best.

Now, tell me how to outrun you.

Current month: January.
If you want to talk about perspective, graduation and finding work certainly does the job.
Time is ticking.
The countdown has always been ongoing but this time,
It’s a bit different knowing there are only four months left.

A mere one hundred and twenty days left to talk about all our plans for the future,
For me to challenge you with all the things I have to say,
And to leave you with a new sort of hope and peace you’ve yet to discover.

Time is ticking,
And I’m not even the one graduating.

“And I will tell you this much:
I will marry just once,
& if it doesn’t work out,
Give her half of my stuff—
It’s fine with me;
We said ‘eternity’.”

Often, one question changes everything.
Keep asking questions with the intention of purely listening and you’ll be surprised what you find.

“The plate fell face down.”

Signing off on a letter with “…in His love” is still love.
In fact, it is an unfathomable love far surpassing even the summation of the love in every single person.
Take that.

What if ‘reciprocation’ was a measure of validity and truth in psychological research methods?

What if, when a phenomenon is simultaneously projected and received by two or more subjects, that phenomenon is considered to truly exist.

You are stainless.
You’re innocent; don’t know how I am.

It’s the irony that ‘faking good’ in order to look good to others, in fact, makes you look even worse.

Whoever coined that term must have been someone so used to sadness they began to appreciate it. It is apparently possible.

I used to concur.
But not anymore. 

Joy is beautiful. Hope is beautiful.
But old habits die hard. 

Tablo.

Like God himself is coming home to say,
“I… I can do anything if you want me here. I can fix anything, if you let me near.”

Must I break and damage everything before taking care of it?
Must I always need that second chance?

“A: Imagine if I had to keep it like this for three years.
B: Yeah, you should. It’s like a Christianing.
A: Like a rite of passage?
B: Yeah, to remind you of your butter fingers.”

They only laugh this hard in an attempt to alleviate the weight of this topic.

Fear of silence being misunderstood as thoughtless emptiness makes it too easy to fall into traps of giving advice too quickly. I am a person who likes to linger and just sit for a bit, letting myself feel something, yet I’m always afraid people will think I feel too much so I fill the silence with some simple sentence.

Next time I think I’ll stay with the feeling and stay with their pain. I am learning to be more generous with this commodity called ‘emotion’ and together we will wait for the sun to come.

Quote from:
http://timandolive.com/2011/12/defining-decision-embrace-depression-2/ 

with some people, you just click, and he is so right. My sentimental side hopelessly agrees; sometimes you just meet people who get you, know what I mean?

The academic side is in retort; it all just depends on circumstances. Mere exposure effect, the phenomenon that just regularly seeing someone is enough to make you prefer them over someone you’ve seen for the first time, and the power of the situation is enough to connect people. So stay with the awkwardness, please. Remember your motive and your desire. Surely your element will arrive and your time will come.

Imagine if every day from now until forever, when you said, ‘Good night’, I said ‘Good morning’. How does that feel? Stay with that feeling; it’s reality isn’t it? We live in such different worlds.

“And I know we live in different worlds,
and we’re always so busy,
but in my dreams you spin around me so fast I wake up dizzy.”